finding.my.other.half

Do you feel relaxed with this person?

Can you be yourself, no pretence, no game playing?

How do you think he would be if you were ill?

How would you be if he became ill?

Could you face never seeing him again?

Do you think about him and smile warmly, or does your heart race?

Above all, can you sit together in comfortable silence?

Lasting love isn't about fireworks all the time;
it's the deep sense of feeling someone really understand you, and you understand them.

Above all, it's someone you know you can always rely on.

.
.
.

Are you there yet?





Foot note: me-smiling

gone.

where is it?
is it in the cupboard?

where is it?
is it in the boxes under the desk?

tired.. looking.. searching..

where is it?
did i left it in the office?

where is it?
or was it in the car?

depressed.. its missing

where is it?
is it really gone?

where is it?
can't seem to find it anywhere.

damn! no wonder i felt funny and empty.
my heart is gone.
someone take my heart away.
.
.
.

You!

CEPAT-LAH BALIK!

Selsemaku bukan di atas kertas, selsemaku getaran yang sama...

Selsema.

Pening.

Sakit kepala.

Rasa ke-demam-an.


Tapi enggan ke klinik.

Enggan dikuarantin.

[...]

Sumpah saya tak berhubungan dengan mangsa Influenza A.

Sumpah babi yang saya lihat tadi itu babi hutan.






Sekian,

Saya-Yang-Selsema;
Bukan selsema biasa....
.
.
.

yay.

i could spent hours and hours,
just doing nothing,
but dreaming of -

...
...
...
...

hurm,
wait....

i think,

.
.
.

i better keep that to myself.


;-)

permintaan.

satu sahaja ;


SEMOGA SAYA DAPAT MEMBEZAKAN ANTARA HORMONAL
dan
PERASAAN.






i hate the feeling of needing
when
it don't last long.


sigh.

;(

bitter 2.

starting from tomorrow;

Selasa,

Rabu,

Khamis.

.

.

.

it will be my GLOOMY days.

secured.

"Cantik cincin you.Hurm, dua-dua jari you dah pakai cincin, nanti cincin I bagi nak pakai kat mana?"

[...]

Jangan risau jari saya ada 10.
2 jari manis saya ni dah 'reserved'.

Cuma sekarang,
saya sayang biarkan jari ni kosong.

Walaupun belum dimiliki,
sekurang-kurangnya bila orang lain nampak,
dia akan fikir, "Oh! Sudah dimiliki."

Dan saya akan senyum gembira,
seolah meng-iya-kan.
Ntah-lah.
Mungkin saya suka perasaan 'dimiliki' itu.

.
.
.

settle.

semua tu memang kata-hati saya.
tak tipu.


dah, senyum ok!


;-)



XOXO,
hugs+kisses

bitter.life

when I couldn't see the fondest things of everyday moments in life anymore,
like a routine drive to work,
and the occasional visit to our favourite 'kedai makan' for a dinner,
and your smile,

it worries me sick!

yes, it does

.



p/s:
ke-tiga

tak.patut

saya ni asyik merungut,
tentang macam macam benda
sekejap itu,
sekejap ini

kasihan awak
terpaksa layan kerenah saya
kerenah orang lain pun awak nak kena layan juga

lepas ni saya janji
untuk cuba tak merungut lagi

kalau merungut juga,
maksudnya mungkin saya sedang hormonal.
tak pun saya memang ada masalah.

saya mengaku
mungkin saya rasa intimidated,
sedikit.



[ok, mungkin banyak]



.


p/s:
ke-dua

volcano

dah meletup semalam

[...]

awak busuk
awak bajet
annoying some more
menyampah
menyakitkan hati
membencikan;

ghdtwedghewhfurtctgehcgeyrftrh

malas cakap-lah
selalu macam ni
merajuk-lah tu;

nbdhewgdfwyhfrhifurhvgjbvujjb

eeeeee!!!!
geram
geram
geram
"le**ang karang!"

[...]

saya mintak maaf.
it just came out.
you know i didn't mean it, i just mad.
saya janji tak buat lagi.
janji!

...

ye, senang kan nak mintak maaf lepas buat salah?


memang senang.



p/s:
ke-satu.

Petak.Petak

"Assalamualaikum. Morning. Terima kasih datang jemput. Kesian you kena bangun pagi-pagi."

[...]

Eh! eh! eh?!!

Awak pakai kain pelikat?

Petak-petak.

Comel.

[yang tu hati saya cakap]

i've.dreamt.of.this

Dearest dear,

How about...

If we move further inland, build a farmhouse, raise chickens.
You milk the cow, I pick the eggs and we drink tea on the rocking chair on the porch and talk about life, world around us, and politic all night long.

and somehow, strangely we develop a southern american accent.

romanticsm.

jom.berbahagia

seronok pulak saya tengok kawan-kawan yang bahagia.

ada orang istimewa, boleh manja-manja, dating-dating, makan sama-sama.

kalau untung sikit, ada orang belanja, dapat hadiah, pergi dinner, jalan sama-sama, gelak-gelak, bebel-bebel pon ada orang nak dengar.

dan pasti ada ayat-ayat penyedap hati dan telinga :

"awak, awak ni comel-lah,"
"awak, bila nak balik ni, rindu saya tak?"
"awak, muah-muah sikit."

best kan?

tiap-tiap hari ada orang bagi tahu kita yang dia sayang kita dan nak kita jadi milik dia.

tiap-tiap hari ada orang akan risau kalau kita tak makan lagi, kalau kita belum bangun tidur, kalau kita balik lambat.

memang indah.

[,]

haish, bila lah nak kahwin. pasti lagi best.

hurm, ada siapa-siapa yang sedang mencari isteri tak?

(muka serius)

[,]

Err, kenapa tiba-tiba? Ala,otak dah tertinggal kat office.

p/s:

demmit~ tak suka! tak suka!

lari.jauh.jauh

kalau boleh lari,
saya ingin pergi ke tempat
di mana
saya tak dikenali.

jauh
dari semua
dan bina personaliti sendiri
yang baru
yang orang tak tahu.

cukuplah, di alam maya ni,

kan?

oh.gula.manis

Muda, naif dan sengal sememangnya kombinasi yang comel. Tulus. Apabila saat penuh kejanggalan itu, terdiam, lantas hanya bila selamat di rumah; rumah masing-masing, baru sibuk berpesanan ringkas elektronik.

[...]

sound effect- alien is landing:

"Dear, did you left somethin? That day masa hantar I dalam kereta?"

kting-tong:

"Apa ek?"

sound effect- alien is landing:
"ok, just checkin'. Tak de ke?"

kting-tong:

"hmm.. I tertinggal ke you yang tertinggal something?"

sound effect- alien is landing:

"Ha'ah, maybe I did lost something la."

kting-tong:

"Ape dia? Nanti I tengokkan."

sound effect- alien is landing:

"Ya! I think you stolen it."

kting-tong:

"Hmm. I tak ambik kalau orang tak bagi."

sound effect- alien is landing:

"Yes, you did. My heart. ;-) "

kting-tong:

"Hmm ;-) . Hihi. Nak balik ke?"

sound effect- alien is landing:

"Nak bagi balik tak?"

kting-tong:

"Tak boleh! ;-) "

sound effect- alien is landing:

"Oke. But please handle it with care. ;-) Its fragile."

[...]

Owh, sepertinya sangat sweet.

Dan masing-masing pinching each other barang sedas dua.

Teach a things or two tentang perasaan,

kan?

Dear dear

Ke hadapan bulan,

i know i could always have your shoulder to cry,
your ears to listen,
your mouth to speak up,
your eyes to watch,

and myself to annoy you.


apa-apa pun yang terjadi, i heart you very much.
kita jangan gaduh-gaduh, marah-marah oke.
if anything seems to be wrong about me, tolong bagitahu and nasihat.
never pendam anything.
i know we could always have each other.


I HEART YOU, MY BESTEST DEAREST DEAR!! ;-)

Entahlah

a lot of things to write,
a lot of things to tell,
and
so many things to share with you.
but it just didn't came out.


now you hate me. mad at me. i just got nobody.




p/s: Ok, saya dengar cakap awak.

Les.Miserable

Isk! Aduh. Sakit-lah, weh! Berhenti menggigit-gigit, boleh tak?

Mendengar lagu-lagu cinta di pagi hari adalah sangat tidak sihat. Sebab apa? Sebab benda alah ‘rindu’ itu akan muncul pastu gigit-gigit. Sakit tau.

Tapi, manusia suka perasaan tu, kan?

[...]

Si Lelaki, seperti yang dikenali olehnya, is not a telephone person.

Bagi lelaki itu;

Telephone is deceiving.

Orang boleh kelihatan conceivable disebalik talian, making you believe everything they said, what they do, what they feel at the moment. It’s a quick getaway. A safe escape.

Bagi Si Gadis itu;

Dia tidak tahu sama ada mahu berlembut hati, atau menjerit sekuat hati dalam telekupan bantal dan membaling telefon bimbitnya ke lantai.